I guess some of my hottest showers are after my longest nights 

Why clean when so hazy

Why run when so caught 

Caught up somewhere feeling too crazy 

Not sure if the dark has tamed me more than the light 

We were okay in the dark. 

Now it's 6 a.m., And it isn't only my eyes having trouble trying to adjust to the light 

You fucking said I was lovely

You looked me in the eyes and said I was "lovely."

You loved my flaws, you never loved 

Me

I don't know how to speak

I don't know how to love

Not the love you showed me

You showed me the acceptance of prevailing failure

I am not a failure 

And that is not lovely 

I want to ask questions but I never get answers 

I guess all my questions are now aimed to crickets 

At least they listen