Awareness doesn't declare rationality

Certain powers declare more attention than others 

Yours seem to be unavoidable

and now acknowledged,

                                   so inescapable 

I think I like it

More than I hate it 

        that's a first

And I'm not scared 

         that's a second

Something I listed on 

         "Things I Hate Deeply:"

 now offering the very sense of fulfillment  

when the specific, special certain dosage  

was aquired 

 then alchemized upon introduction 

The universes first encounter with this specimen, 

as well 

Tales told, time over time 

Experienced only once in the naked flesh of the eye

-C.C. 

Feeling loved,

                      radiant.

something like a night under the Pacific's playful skies

    Electricity as kinetic as can be

A war they both love to play,

The reason we call them "wars." 

 hatred that effortlessly impacts what you call your "well-being."

"Love."

Is this why it is also titled pain? 

Willingly ignored torture?

    inescapable or weak ??