And you reminded me what it was like to hug someone so completely that you can begin to feel their muscles lean up against their bones

I look at that heart, the one I've hated for so long, and the truth is she hates it just as much I do 

You close your eyes on I love you's, bow your head on good mornings, and that awful cringe as you give and receive warmth

So pore me in pure guilt under concrete, 

and Spread your beautiful wings in the light

continue to preach of my protection

You can no longer protect me from the light.

-C.C.

And maybe at some point there is nothing to chase anymore 

And finding yourself is the only thing every path leads to

"Why did it take this long?"

But what about just telling yourself 

"It's okay."

Maybe cause we falter

we falter, Every fucking time.

Maybe you can only see as much things about yourself as you choose to

Smiling after second place never felt so badass 

Some things do take longer than others to realize

"Patience is a virtue." The words of my fourth grade teacher

Now more relevant than ever as I let my hair loose in the sun on this afternoon boat ride 

2:42 a.m.

And I've come to realize we pick endings more often than we tend to choose beginnings 

Just how the Dark Ages were too foolish to realize the Renaissance 

Sometimes I wait inbetween the silence 

And then realize it's just as hopeless as you are

And the times I am placed in rooms the loudest, I can't help but to hear your silence.

I always loved that about you. Learning to expect the unexpected.

Yes Jonathan, I still think pepper spray is fucking stupid, but now I truly enjoy skimpy clothes in sketchy parking lots. 

Irony keeps its interesting right? 

Thanks for teaching your baby girl best

-xo 

C.C.